I'm alone.

Alone.
Never going to have another fantastic memory in life.
I'm unlucky, to be given "friends" like these.
But I'm also lucky, to have friends I cherish.
Some just come nearby for some benefits.
Some just drop by and ask what's up.

Some just call your name when itself is drowning.
Some just need to me to cling on, while waiting for her buddies to save her.
Woah.
Fantastic.
Fabulaso.
I'm rather, speechless now.
I'm rather, speechless.

i do not know.

What's happening?
I don't know what's going on.
Everyone seemed so sure, but I felt so blur.
What can I do. I'm really feeling very blur.

I.......

..wish you a merry christmas, i wish you a merry christmas, i wish you a merry christmas and a HAPPY NEW YEAR! ^^

I would like to dedicate this song to all my buddies out there.
Yalah yalah, ALL OF YOU LAH.
As long as you are reading this, it's for you one lah lol.

Have a BRIGHT FUTURE ahead *ding* *light bulb lights up*
Have a scary year in college *rawr*
Have some fun time ahead *wheeee*

May god bless you ( for christian friends)
May luck and wealth come to you ( for buddhist friends)
May Santa Claus find you ( for Santa-believers)

Whee. Have fun!

Class trip 21-23th of December, Pangkor.

First day, I didin't even sleep on the night before. Whole night, didin't sleep.
We had a long ride on the road to Lumut. Then sit ferry lo.
2nd time liao hehehes.
It was fun, as usual.
It's like, our last time metting up together d. Had lots of fun.
Well, but there are people not from our class. quite a number of em.
Sigh..this trip, considered okay lah.. But then got some problems lah. A lil unorganised.
But overall, it's okay. GOOD JOB FIDELLA^^ and some of the others who helped to organise this trip.

I slept with Yong loh. As usual. Then Emily with Fidella. We slept with fidella's cousin brother and his gf. With Jin Yin and a couple of guys. All in one apartment.
End up, all the boys went to other rooms, remaining only the girls and fidella's cousin bro and his gf.
Actually Pei Mun was supposed to sleep with us one. She went to other room sleeping with the duckies, expected d one lah. Sigh. Whatever lahhhhh.

On the first day, got quite a number of stuffs to do lorh... Reaching there, getting there is the most tiring one. Then had lunch loh. Lunch liao then we go rest loh. Then comes dinner, and then BBQ at the seaside. It's also my 2nd time doing it at the dark.
The duckies, mostly all guys, including the scouties ( Andy and Kar Soon ) did the fire starting.
Whee. Good job guys. It's not easy to start fire by the seaside ^^
Thanks to you guys also lah..
Then some bunch of crazy boys took of their tops and jumped into the sea for a quick swim. LOL. speechless weih. And it's kinda dangerous too ( Te Cheng and i agreed) lol.
Thank god they are safe.

I then thought of getting somemore torch lights and water plus some cardboards, to let em sit on. Yong teman me as usual loh. She got a torchlight also what. Then we got our torchlights, and walked to the mini market, which is also on the way to the beach ( the beach is VERY NEAR to the apartment ONLY! 5 mins walk only! ) and got some free cardboards. Hehes. Bought 2 bottles of 1.5liter water for em too. Cold ones. hahas.

Too bad lah. My torch, very expensive one leh... I don't know where to find liao leh... Very special one leehhh........ LET THE BOYS ROSAKKAN LIAO. they throw young kiong into the water LAH! and just nice he's holding it. AHHH!!!!!
it's actually a rechargable torch. No battery required one. Now cannot function liao. AH! =(
I pay the trch myself one leh.. =((((
Now i dont know where to get it liao! =(
the bbq ended at 2am. Whee. Fun!
I remember lining up 4 cardboards, to sleep on the beach. ( they are very small cardboards)
I looked up to the sky. Wow, nice view man. Milions of stars in the sky. Very special night. I love it much much. <3

1st day, we also went for island hopping. Sit in the boat, and then there it goes. The speed boat went left and right, we girls screamed like hell HHAHA. cause really scary, macam gonna fall off like that ^^
Then for some time d, the boat driver aka guide suddenly stop the boat. Took off his top, and jumped into the sea. Dived for some time and suddenly throw a sea cucumber into the boat. I damn pissed man. not pain one meh the sea cucumber. =( I sayang those animals lah...
Then found a "hai2 dan3" also. Black in colour with alot of points one ah...very expensive one leh that one.
Then we went to a prt of some island, to do snorkeling. but one funny thing, there are almost 10 people in our boat, but they only provide 3 snorkeling masks. WALAO. lol. we jumped down anyway. Xiao Wei and Li Mian remained in the boat. They carried out their VERY IMPORTANT TASK, take pics hhaha ^^
Then many people got hurt on their legs, cause under the water, there are those sharp coral stones. GAH, i also kena alot. very pain ah!
then while swimming in the sea ah, we got wear the life jacket one mah... Then we jump into the sea d, will float one mah. a lil unsteady only lah... then need to swim one what. So hard to swim lah. As in, the waves, AND THEN AH, TO THOSE PEOPLE WHO COULDN'T STOP SPLASHING WATER ONE AH, GAH!!!! i almost couldnt breathe man! uhmm..got who d ah... ve kenn lah, chiau yean lah, some guys from other class one. lols. but it's okay one lah lol.

Te Cheng kesian lah. Kena tapak kaki. Pain like hell lah must be T_T
Mine leh, bleeding non stop lol. But i still swim swim swim.
Pei Min said:"HOOIYIN! WHERE ARE YOU! "
"here here, grab my hands weih"
"ve kennn!!!!!!" screamed pei mun HAHAHAHHAHAHA..

After that, we went back to the apartment, straight away jump into the pool there, wet d mah... May as well just jump in LOL.
Then then then bathe and clean up for dinner lo...
then 2nd day, i paling suka. Cause all free time one. whee!
Morning breakfast d then we makan lunch, then then free time comes! all went for bicycle riding. Ride around the island.
Walao, only rm3 for 24 hours leh. So cheap! then we ride loh. ride half way d, yong and i need to turn back. THE KEY IS WITH YONG, WALAO. shit lah. And found out yong's bike the wheels are very hard, need to change. walao, that yong ah, what also dont want to say one.
So people ride for awhile ride far far liao. While yong and i the slow one. whatever lah gosh.
Yong's bike memang paling mah fann one lol.
went back to the apartment and also change bike lorh. mana tahu no bikes d. only 1 left. A VERY HEAVY BIKE. yong memang kesian one lah. Then conitnue riding lorh we all.
Then we ride to a beach, a different beach. Whee, the sand there's not so..uhmm..how to say ah..Not so easy to sink in lah. Cause very little ppl get in one. hehe. We took some shells there and walked around.
we did cycling for around 2 hours. successfully!
Actually wanted go kayak one. But then SUN VERY HOT LEH.
so cancelled d.
Then we went back to apartment to swim in the pool HAHAHA.
Yong and i swim one..Suddenly chin hong and his buddies came down for a swim also.
Actually we all pakat d 4.30 swim one. but then all didint come down, only chin hong they all.
They purposely buy a ball, to play monkey in the pool haha. we play so long d, i also didin't kena jadi monkey HAHAHA wheee^^
pei mun and hui leng joined us later on. Fidella also.
Then go clean up, for dinner lo.
After dinner, went to yi lynn's room there.
Got zhanping, chin hong, yi lynn, jia hwa and ch's friends there.
all of us play mafia, Whee!! i love it man.
I was the mafia for like 2 or 3 times d. So fun^^
But i got killed for the last time d.
Then we went to make some glutinous balls @ the duckies' room and makan. Guo dong ma..
Then went backk to the room again. Gambled a lil. whee. I won rm2 in total after the losing and winning hahahs.
I was kinda lucky that night.
Went back to our room @ around 2am. Only Yong and i. Emily and fidella stayed @ their room.

3rd day, morning wake up @ 7.30. 8 something went to the beach there, walked kinda far @ the beach to get to the big rocks there. It's towards the end of the beach there. Whee. So fun. There's a cute dog, followed us, went into the water, onto the rocks! HAHAHA.
I had the chance to take a pic with the dog. Just nice lol. will be in Facebook. ^^
I love animals as usual, wheee....
Then we went back to sleep or awhile, and check out balik liao lo. =(

yes, i am back.

sorry lorh, so long didin't update jor.
Not i want de mah...
Finish SPM d i also high gei liao, do crafts. Then suddenly need to go for january intake for college, registerations...portfolios.......then got class trip. Today suppose to get to Melaka one. But then thismorning my headache's really pain till gao gao. Packed my stuffs d, also cannot go d. =(

Sigh. Suddenly everything's like speeding up.
Time's speeding up.
Time to meet up new friends, meet up new people.
Everything's fresh, new, shiny.

Congratulations Girls.

Heard 3 of you won the video. Cool.
How i wish I have the chance to do it and to receive the award too.
But whatever lah. Sighh.
=(
Congrats once again.
"wah, they won?"
"yeah. compared to others, theirs is not so professionally done, more to amature"
"lol, okay..."

A little love note ;)

Not love note lah. Just some notes to my friends. Whee..

I did this small notes with their names infront specially for my classmates ONLY.

Some people didn't get it ( mostly girls! ) Cause I didin't have enough papers, and and No time. Sorry lorh =(

People who didin't get it are:

Suet Lee - You know that you're a sweet and great friend ;)

Xiao Wei - eventhough we seldom talk, but you're just a nice and friendly person =)

Sue Ping - I didin't say that I'm not going to give you lah! =)))) PROMISE! really!!! really not enough papers!!!!!! Teehees. You know that you're a great and kind person too hehes.

Joyce - You're just a fine and nice person.

Joo Yeong - You're just like Suet Lee, Sama sama baik ^^. Really friendly Teehees.

Mun Mun - It's great AND FUN chatting with you, especially in cantonese. I haven't met anyone

that i can speak cantonese with them ALL DAY LONG non stop. teehees.

Yi Lynn - Whee..Don't angry lerh... =) really no paper lah... =))) You're a great and nice friend, willing to listen to others. Not like others, listen halfway then run off liao =(. And you're a great friend toooooooo

Erika - Haha. Let's practise some piano after SPM lol. You're a kind and yet, good friend too. =)

Sorry lorh everyone. REALLY NO PAPERS LIAO!!!

I didn't want to give you guys normal A4 papers. =((( And no time alsooooo.. =)))

Some of you might think that, you guys don't know me well also. But honestly, few years together in a same class liao. I'll still write you guys stuffs.

If you don't know what the hell is all these, look at your school bag right now. Search in deep, up and down, look for the small note=) (except for thos names on top hehees)

Thank You guys and girls, for being a friend.=)

Graduation.

yes, i know. I shouldn't be here. But, come on.. It's graduation day!

Graduation day today sucked to me. ;)

Yes, it's a very very very memorable day, for everyone. yet, it sucked a lil for me.

1. Terrible terrible an1 pai2. For the chairs, why no stickers on it? I remember that we guides, purposely put stickers last year, stickers as in numbers, for the namelist one lah.

Then you see your number you just sit down lah!

End up this year, no stickers at all. And, wasted everyone's time, especially students, sitting dwn, standing up, down and up and down again. And keep on changing places for like, more han 20 times. AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2. Alright, cooling down. Whee..

Mengapa Datin's retirement must be made with our graduation?

I know the school, want to jimat $$.

But, come on. for real, we have not enough time for ourselves lah. Come on. =(

3. Why no lunch provided this year? Cause of Datin's Retirement? =((((( !!

If got lunch, we can take somemore pics with teachers in dewan, with air cond, and and it's chilly.

Why is it happening!!! =((

Why no extra time for uss wheeee.....

4. Ehs, boys, don't simply sit on other people's seats while they are not there kay? =(

5. Singing time, graduation song and auld lang syne, ah... Don't even mention about it. I'm really sad about it. =(

And yes, you, look. You will just treat me good when you need my stuffs and my help. admit it! But some of you are just great.

i'm cursed.

I can't memorise a single thing i studied!

Shoot, what happened.

Am i cursed or something? sigh.

Quoted by Ms.Sharmini

LIFE IS NEVER FAIR!

SHIT DAMNIT.

i really regret listening to your advice.

I talked nicely to her.

So what?

SHE STILL WON'T LISTEN!

THE DEVIL WILL JUST NEVER LISTEN!

and whatever she say also right one ( YEAH RIGHT DAMNIT! )

I had enough of this.

why she can always talk

BUT NOT ME!

Damn hell *****!

secondary life is great with you guys.

lalalala. Whee...!

If you guys are not with me during secondary life, what will I be? =)

The whole 1C1 classmates.

Jin Jing, Monica, Sue Jenn, Min Yee, Chi Kwan, Li Teng, Poh Yi, and of course the 2C1 classmates.

3B2 classmates, Chong Hui, Mabel

Lee Heng, Jia Xin, Jie Min, Khai, Kais, Yong, Marianne, Hong Jin, Felicia, Juo, Yee Jing.

4P3 and 5P3 classmates.

LiMian, Emily, Pei Lin, Pei Mun, Hui Sin, Kenn, Sher Ren, Annice, Amanda, Soon, Fidella, Chin Hong, ShunZhi, Sue Sue Sue, MunMun, Hou Yan, Suet Lee, ZiYan, Chye Leng, Yu Rong ( direct spelling )

Wheeee....many more...

wait wait! If you're name is not listed, don't be sad, kawan baikku.

Sigh. The World's full of Sorrowness out there, betrayal by friends, damn Shit stuffs.

But, as long as I take you as kawan baikku, ;) then you're just fine my friend.

everything's moving so fast..

EVERYTHING'S moving so fast..

So fast another day..

So fast another week..

So fast another month..

So fast next year...

So fast being 18..

So fast can drive liao..

So fast can get to college..

So fast can go out for work..

So fast I can work what I want..

So fast I'm a grown up..

So fast exam's coming..

So fast SPM's coming..

So fast Tynie's growing old..

So fast Lizzie and Spotty is growing up big..

So fast benji gonna be 11 years old..

So fast Tynie gonna be 12..

So fast my sister's getting married soon..

So fast I can get my own camera..

So fast I can get to Pangkor with my classmates..

So fast I can get my SPM results..

So fast for eveerything in life.

Real life no take two, please bear in mind.

SPM in 40 days.

Whee.

Exam's coming.

Whee.

Here comes the fun.

Whee.

Making myself happy *trying hard*

Whee.

Let's go on.

AND WHEEEE!! I IMPROVED MY DAMN ENGLISH! ^^

Thanks to Mr.William A BUNCH!

Attended his English Seminar. OMG, helped alot. I got paper two already. The writing essays one.

And WHEE, really my marks flied UP UP AND UP!

But still, my grammar is really total lost man. =(

Sigh. My problem is still my grammar.

my directed writing got 32 over 35 while my continuous writing got 43 over 50.

omgomgomg, it's like, my first time XD

all thanks to teacher, Puan Vivian and Mr.William!

And and and, my Mod Maths improved too. Not alot, but happy enough. I gonna aim an A in SPM for it. Wheee..?

But then my accounts, sigh. I was sick when i took the exam for paper 2. Which got most of the marks. Darn, flunked. but SPM tentu A!

Whee.

Words here are written to make me strong. I still want to aim at least 6As in SPM.

English, Mathematics, Science, Accounts, Ekonomi, Moral.

A few of em wont work to get A, sigh. But, ah yin got confidents. I still need to work extra hard. But i wish I could PASS MY ADD MATHS. Tentu BOLEH!

Frankly speaking, Trials I failed ALOT OF SUBJECTS. I can't say it's too hard, just too HARSH. Teachers, why do this to us? We are just NORMAL PEOOPPLLEEE!

I hate trials alot man. During trials i kept on getting sick, oh man. WHYY...!

For example: Sejarah--> extra headache

Accounts--> Little fever PLUS VERY HEADACHE

and other days also headache.

Sigh. A day before those exams i also kept on sleeping, My head was soooooo giddy.

AND ALMOST COULDN'T ATTEND TEST. Whee..?

alright. since trials like that, I have nothing much to ttalk about it already. Marks are all out already. What can I say?

Why not I use the time to look at my red marks, and just try to get toughen up and and and study like a book worm? Hence, get good grades to make my family and friends proud of me?

I really have to heart to get good grades, and so, wish me luck, cause I have left another 40 days to work as hard as a cow, to get many As!!!

Wheeeeeeeeeeee....!

ps:even though I know trials marks are VERY important, but what can I do? I don't think I could apply college for that result already lorh... I'll just use my SPM results lorh. So i can only attend college later lo? NOOOO....

NO WAYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm already sick enough of this trials. Just one day before raya I was sick. And NOW, Just ONE DAY BEFORE SCHOOL REOPENS AND TRIALS SAMBUNG, I'M SICK AGAIN!

I hate to say this word, But i got diarrhea.

Oh man. Shit shit shit. It's not good at all!

It interupts me all day long. And the worst thing is, KeeP GoinG to ToileT!

No way man.

What If I CAN'T MAKE IT on the 1st day??!!

omg. can't believe i missed it.

our class is also doing the singing thingy on stage.

Then today need to go bac to school to sing one. practise ma.

mana tahu, i asked everyone yesterday, they say no need to go back.

shoot. MANA TAHU, today need to go back =(

i am so saddd i wanted to go back one lah!!

no one told me about it =((

sorry dear KT

sorry jie min

stealing thingy from your bloggy again haha.

Guess you know which one lah --the darn reminder for SPM clock lorh

i found it, omg, so in love with it. It's a really good reminder, thanks.

reply to heng's question: why so sad?

sigh... I've been thinking about my future.

What i really want to be?

I was thinking of Filming&Directing and the Editing thingy @ Lim Kok Wing one.

But, mom said, no future in Malaysia. Sigh.

Then, my favourite, Culinary and Baking. Need to choose one of it somemore sigh.

Then then then, i want to have my own shop also what. But but but, mom said I need to get Business liao..

It's either I choose Culinary/baking or Business right? HOW!!!!

why?

今天，我又体会到，有-他-讲-没-人-讲-他-对-完-别-人-错-完 。

我也没什么好说了。他这种人，到死了也不悔改的。我只好笑着逃走， 那么我也不必当面骂着他， 伤他的心。

唉。。天呀。。为什么我没得选？

为什么我逼不得已 留在这？

我回来啦！！！

我返黎啦！！！

omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg...

trials要完了。。

过后就是spm了。

咳。。过后就去college了。

DARN SATURDAY.

basically, we came for nothing. MOST of the teachers didin't come into our class. Sigh. Wasting time. BUT BUT BUT, our class got the most kehadiran in the whole school for morning session I think. haha. so proud.XD

other classes only a few came, but ours, 38 came out of 47 hehe.

XD every teacher pass by also say:whoa great attendance ah!

haha...

ah yin's having tuition now.

finally i am having tuition now. sigh.

in kasturi. Thank god nothing came up on that day haha.

Felicia also didint trust me that i would turn up yesterday XD

Ah yin understand more liao loo...

KENG YONG BEING DUMB HHAHAHAHAHA!!

PEOPLEEEE do not MISS this GOLDEEENNNN opportunity!!!

Khai Xing's birthday!!

This is LIM KHAI XING blowing the candles off HAHAHA..

walao....memang vandelisme..gosh.

it has been a long way....

Oh gosh. I can't believe what the hell I'm doing now-tearing.
I don't want to end form5 like that =(((
And I'm soooo sad. I LOVE YOU FORM5S !!!

the 12 of us in form5s, we're always UNited haha. There are sometimes that we fight too, but still, we're back into 1. We are one of the most united form5s in years. And i really love it.
But still, there are sometimes PEOPLE do stuffs to us.
STILL, Form5s, I love you =)))

Owhh, those days, those times, those moments, AWWWWSSS....I so miss em man!
And now, we're going to our own ways soon, different ways, paths, blablabla.
I soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo MAD that i'm not in one of those AGM pics u guys took.
ANYWAYS, LOVE YOU GUYS! EVERYONE OF YOU!

iNTRODUCING our big family!!!
Henry- lee Heng
Juosie-jackers
hooiyin-Hyena
keng Yong-turkey
Felicia- Fillet-o-fish burger
jiax-coffee
hong jin-teddy
jie min-sweet potato
khai xing- Jeffy(giraffe)
Kai Sein-Kais(henry's gf)
marianne- henry's maid HAHAHA (MARIA!!!)
yee jing- Henry's gf too!! HHAHAHA..


Oh man....=( i dont want to end it like this =((((

Those days...

these are given to me by a few friends, including vanessa jane and li teng for my prezzieee
KESELURUHANNYA, my board hahhaa
my old kite. very 1st one.
some campaigns from this year, exclude the white thinggy
this is the part whee i did my own keychains.At the middle that heart-wooden chain is by TKY. my bday prezzie
These are the keychains fom other places.
A classic cameron highland pencil, given by my 2 sisters when i was young. as a bday prezzie.
Marching competition year 2007 by BSMM.^^
I got this money minded chain from WATSON few months ago, tht time only left this very one leh! HAHAA
i won the colouring and drawing thinggy in school. Got this sticker and a note book.=))
button i'm holding is the PBSM button. told u i was a PBSM during primary!!!
23 jan 09. My birthday, i took the bus home. How pathetic.
campaign by sa.I not enough green bean to cook i'll use de lah lols
campaigns
campaigns
beautiful hard-to-do rose. i love it=)han lin, gteat choice.

Love the earth weih!

this is the refill catridge
this is the markerpen.

pictures are taken by me lah.

Okay, people, love the earth kay!

Stop buying things then throw em. Try to reuse em. Like markerpen. cannot refill meh? Honestly, kinda cheap and economic lah. Somemore this whiteboard markerpen can use darn long leh.....Let's say your Pen tip dry d, can buy the replace one also. ;)

ah yin's sick.

keng yong cleaning lodge hahaha..
still cleaning...


everyone helping on the chocs
still helping..
dumb dumb teddy
haha, sophie sitting on the gadget hahaa..
i hate this sick season..i mean, everyone hate it, right? =]

but anyway, i was like, suddenly feel on the table, dropped dead on the table = sleeping at the last 2 periods. SHIT. I felt sick. SICK. Not good at all=(((

after school, stayed in lodge till i'm not that giddy, walked home SLOWLY..

it's still with me...

this is a simple friendship knot. =)
"Welcome to the sunflower patrol of chs girl guides.Hope our Friendship will bond like this friendship knot" Awwss. I'm still keeping it =)

I still remember, when i went into guides in form2. hahaha...welcoming party, wei lin represents Sunflower patrol, and gave us, recruits, some souvenirs. Even though it's simple, but i still keep it. After 4 years, it' s still in my wallet. ^^

okay, let's practise some acts to make our world a better place

you just have to press it again and again to charge it.
the super bright light =))
the white tag's my name hahahha...but just ignore it. this creation's like, SO COOL.
ah yin discovered this super cool torchlight. It doesn't need any battery, it just need your energy to charge it by pressing it again and again for like, lots of times, then it''ll be as bright as a BRIGHT LIGHT. And the light's LED light, so it's like, damn bright. Cool right? the best thing here is, if we don't need any of the batteries for torchlights, then we humans don't have to produce batteries d right? And we don't have to produce more plastic for its packaging??

COOL RIGHT?? go get one lah....